40. the last person i got mad at was this girl in my group project today because she didnt do her shit before we got there

42. have you made a list of things to do before you die? kind of but it hasnt ever been a complete or totally accurate list

44. one person i wish i could see is my boyfriend. he literally just left my house like 15 minutes ago and i want him back. he goes back to vegas tomorrow morning and i miss him so much already. 

45. one thing that makes me feel great is being in his arms, even just fucking seeing him right in front of me makes me melt. im sorry these are ALL going to be about him. they would be if he wasn’t here this weekend anyway. 

46. i have more girl friends but i wish my guy friends outnumbered my girl friends

47. my best friend is my boyfriend. no doubt. even though he’s so far away, i go to him for anything. second to him is a tie between julia, alli, christine, anthony, mike, and jeremy

50. i would love to be with tony in his car on the way back to his house so that i could go on the plane with him tomorrow back to vegas. that’d be…ideal.

60. i lose all respect for people who disregard other peoples’ feelings

64. my friends are really fucking funny

65. i am currently crying right now

66. people that make me happy are MY BOYFRIEND, my friends, anyone that smiles at me or does something nice and selfless for someone, children, old wrinkly people, etc

67. my boyfriend makes me cry the most but not like as in sad cry or mad cry but i cry so often because i miss him when he’s gone and when he’s here i cry so often because he makes me so happy. im his hormone storm

77. the last time someone said what i was thinking was tonight obviously because tony reads my mind on the daily

78. i can’t hide jack shit from tony he knows me wayy too well

79.my first crush was in fifth grade on corey vorzimer lol he was hot but isn’t now

83. the most difficult thing to do is watch him drive away when his flight is the next morning. it’s the worst. 

85.i’m not looking forward to tomorrow. cheer practice. school. working ono a project after school after jazz band. without him. ugh.

86. im looking forward to the summer because 1. he’ll be home 2. i might be drum major and if i am then im getting paid at my awesome summer job that was considered volunteer work last year but maybe ill get paid this year. that was three in one. 

88.i really miss my bed when i leave home. with all of my stuffed animals.

89. tony definitely makes me laugh the most

170. yesterday i had a cheer competition at knotts, walked around knotts with julia and christine, got home, was with tony until he left, then did research for a project

171. yes i play an instrument hehe flute, piccolo, tenor saxophone

173. my parents were never married. only kinda together. it gets complicated after that and right now i dont even know if theyre officially in a relationship again or not all i know is i want my dad fucking out of my house.